Monday, December 29, 2014

Optimism in 2015

I feel an energy for 2015 already.  I have said many times over the past few weeks that I am done with 2014.  I'm just done.  It was a challenging year in terms of career and finances.  I know some people think my looking at horoscopes is a crack-pot thing to do.  But life is hard.  I think any little tool that can really help you manage life is at least something to be noted.  And even if I read them, it doesn't mean the be-all end-all.  If I thought for one second that they were true to every single person we would all be classified under 12 categories only, ever. Please. I have more intelligence than that.  But they are fun to read. 

Mostly what I've read for 2015 so far states that I will be emotional.  I will be more focused if I can avoid emotion taking over.  It's a good time to learn.  Love will grow deeper this year (and also, I will reunite with an old flame, that I should be wary of, because it will be fleeting.) Career will require a lot of hard work to be noticed for advancement; possible career change.  Family will have struggles over someone leaving home; family growing closer in the second part of the year.  Finances will continue to struggle but pay off greatly in 2016 if I do the work.  And funny enough, these are most of my goals this year.

1) I am going to go back to school this year.  I am going to bust my ass to forward my education.  I'm getting old, people.  I need to shit or get off the pot.  Either I move forward, or I settle into this life of not enough money to live comfortably and rethink everything that I've moved toward thus far.  I finally see the value in myself getting an education.  The best part is, combined with my experience, it will make me a serious competitor for any job in my chosen field.  (I'll write more of that when things start moving.)

2) I am going to kick my finances in the ass.  Enough of borrowing from Peter to pay Paul.  I need to make huge changes, but running from it certainly won't solve a damn thing.  It's scary, and it's probably going to hurt, hit me hard and freak me the hell out, but again, I am not getting any younger.  I have my literature and a game plan.  Watch out- I'll make it, yet!

3) I am going to work hard at my career.  I don't want to find a new job, but you never know what may come to pass.  I have seen some things over the last few months that make me question a lot about where this company is headed.  Can I get on board with it?  I think maybe I can.  Unless I'm nothing more than a woman trying to play in a pool of men.  I work in a man's industry.  The inequality I am seeing (in many industries, not just mine) between men and women makes me sick.  We are either equals or we aren't.  It's 2015, not 1907, for the love of- WHY must women be faced with lesser treatment (mostly in the paycheque/bonuses realm) in the workforce all the time???  I don't want to look for another job... but I do need to make more.  I'm either getting fairly compensated or moving on...

4) I will continue to meditate to keep my emotions in-check.  I will take time to focus on me to better myself physically (health and well-being), intellectually (education) and spiritually.  I will take the time to exercise, eat well, continue writing and learn. 

I feel a growth year for me.  I am optimistic, but for the first time, very calculated and focused on doing this the right way and less by way of emotion.  Sometimes I think I'm a bit of an emotional junkie.  I love the feels.  I am elated at the highs and I curse the lowest of the low, forcing myself to be strong; that this too shall pass.  Maybe by taking a more pro-active approach to life it will set me on a more stable path.  We all have our own journey.  Maybe to the 'sensibles' out there, I seem like a late-bloomer.  I am not sensible.  I never have been.  I am a late-bloomer; I sometimes feel like the last person to realize the big 'click'.  It doesn't make me less of a person.  It only reaffirms my belief to always grow.  Always feel the changes in your life and always learn.  Always strive to be more.  Wishing you each a year of growth and strength.

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